and so i passed

May 15th, 2009 by

And so I passed from one love
To the next
Or more precisely one idea of love
To the next

A succession of meandering streams
That never led to the ocean
A ring of water
Always flowing down hill
Always flowing into itself

And so I passed from one love
To the next
Never knowing what love was
A blind man
Who in the darkest night
Convinced himself he could see

Then one day I found you
And the streams all led to the ocean
With such a terrible force
I feared myself carried away

And so I passed from one idea of love
To the realization of love
A ring of water
It’s banks overflowing
Creates an ocean
Was always an ocean

cowboy accused of killing his parents

March 27th, 2009 by

A fallow summer night

Choleric heat under a bright red devil moon

Crickets chirp

Underneath the Big Sky

Thirteen years underground

I have a friend, kids

Oh, he is a friend of yours too

Look around you

At the blood

Flowing like torrents
As merrily as if it were champagne

No longer will man be responsible

For his actions

God is dead, kids

God, is surely dead

Your Father is asleep on an easy chair

Bathed in the television’s spectral glow

The evening news announces

Cowboy accused of killing his parents

did i break your heart again

March 27th, 2009 by

I remember several years ago

Mission on the Embarcadero

On our way…

Going opposite directions

Jack Kerouac Street?

Hand in hand

A toxic purple sun

Smoldering overhead

Lost the first time

Thinking we could beat the world

At its own game

Did I break your heart again?

The answer is undoubtedly

No

February 16th, 2009 by

When There’s No Answer

Every effort’s

lonely letdown,

still, and

hopeful.

winter morning madness

January 14th, 2009 by

He walks slowly, meandering down the street. His steps are even and certain. He’s been down this route many times before, the walk from shibuya to harajuku more pleasant than the three-minute train ride. The pavement is cold in the early winter morning, the sun low in the east. The early morning sun, rising, a swirling sunflower up from the east, a beautiful roaring orb casting beautiful warmth on his hands, face glowing in the radiant morning sun. He passes boutique after boutique, harajuku a warren of exclusivity coming to life at the start of a day, passes the Duffer of St. George, passes Nike Sportswear, Burton flagship, Beams, BOA design all hip and retro Eams lounger on display, all the illusion of hype, limited edition color way, air max 90s, Japanese exclusive, cats street is hip, cats street is boutique street, exclusive hip and harajuku is “the mecca.” On past the funky French café on his right, cats streets spits him out onto Omotesando, beamers, audis, Ferraris, Maseratis. Tokyo is madness in concrete and steal magnificent urban chaos, cosmopolitan and striking madness.
On Omotesando he picks up the pace, city beat, city bob and weave the sidewalk is coming to life and will soon be teaming with thousands of consumers, buying, buying, buying. He hops left to avoid a family of French tourists, weaves right and leans left to skirt a salary man, ipod, PSP, black trench, finds an opening between a young couple on his right and kicks it into high gear making his body thin he weaves and jukes his way to the meiji dori crossing, city beat. The Gap across from him, Condomania on his left, city landmarks the equivalent of ancient wizened oak trees or giant boulders in a far off and mythical land called: the country, the countryside, grass, nature, natural beauty, he strains his memory, casts his memory back, trys to picture “verdant rolling hills” the “big sky” and forests of pine. He draws a blank. The concrete consumes him the urban landscape overcomes him, who needs countryside when you have 100,000 restaurants, 1 million hair dressers, 36 million friends and comrades at your elbow, who needs countryside when you have “the urban park?”
Red light, green light, he’s worked his way to the front of the pack, and steps out when he sees the Omotosando street light turn amber. Only amateurs watch the pedestrian lights. He’s half way across Omotosando before the Italian hipster tourists behind him can say “buona mattina.” At the median he spots her, back to him sitting on the railing across from Wendy’s. Next to her a line of funky, ultra cool hype beasts, hipsters, weirdos all spiked out hair, amber hair, black hair, blonde highlights, crew cut, supreme box caps, skinny jeans, baggy jeans, black leather jackets, black rimmed glasses, bowler hats, fitteds, all over , Bape Exclusive, Nieghborhood. Dressed in streetwear that costs as much as a tailored suit from saville row. Harajuku is “the mecca” and there she is wedged between a box logo on the left and a boat shoe on the right, a diamond in the rough of the urban street scene. Her hair is in a crinkly, crunchy shock of a ponytail exploding from the crown of her head, exposing the beautiful coffee colored nape of her neck.
He picks up the pace, city beat has no time to wait, time is not on your side in the city, in the city the hands of the clock move faster, spin fast like propeller blades, like the heady blur of a jet engine intake. Across omotesando, stay on the street, cut the crap, only tourists stick to the sidewalk. He almost runs up behind her, hops to the curb, over some shin length bushes, comes to a joyous crashing halt at her back, arms around her shoulders.
“How’s my girl?” He steps over the railing brushing past the APC model on her right and comes to rest for the first time since hoping off the Shonan Shinjuku in Shibuya twenty minutes ago.
“Wouldn’t know, why don’t you ask her?”
He throws his head back and lets out a quick burst of rapid, growling laughter. A smirk creeps across her face.
“Apartment café?”
“Apartment café, I’m fucking starving.”
He’s on the move again, now with his partner in crime. The sun rising in the east, heat in the east, the city is alive, the city is teaming with life, we are the city and the city is alive within us, thirty-six million people and not a friend in the world but one. In the city all you have is yourself. The city will swallow your friends, will swallow your girl will swallow your dog. Omotosando is ten thousand people full, the clock strikes eleven and the day is begun, roaring in beautiful urban insanity. Beautiful urban insanity: Tokyo.

fishing

December 25th, 2008 by

One day

I’ll find myself on a sailboat.

Fishing

With no bait.

What are you fishing
With?

She’ll ask.

And I’ll reply.

Perseverance.

The fish knows I want it

Therefore it bites.

Like you.

2

December 22nd, 2008 by

making love

like castaways

and the one thing that stays with me

is the way her hair

would
fall
in
my
face
a raven storm
a pure black night

and
big green eyes

like they don’t make ‘em anymore
big green eyes

full of sadness

filled with loneliness
it feels as though you were always
in
me

she said

truth is
I never had her

truth is she was a whore
but I loved her

when she told me
she

was

leaving

i guess you could say

i was kinda’ happy

In a holden caulfield sort of way

9

December 21st, 2008 by

real life is never as interesting as
old stories and black and white films

where the hero falls
in love
with the girl he’s only just met a few pages
ago

when all it took was one look from big eyes that are far bigger

than any modern day girl’s
and a face that is obviously from the 1930s

then after defying his parents
and saying to hell with this life

he pursues her

but she plays hard to get of course

but then they are only what, sixteen?

eventually he gets her to notice him
and confesses his undying love for her but then

he probably has to go off to war

or some other place far away but then just before he goes

she declares she’s loved him

all along

and they promise to marry when he returns
and
perhaps she’s pregnant
from the one and only time they made love
because in stories that’s

all it takes is one time

of course in the end he dies in the fields
and maybe she dies too of a broken heart

upside down things

December 21st, 2008 by

the mind is full of upside down things
rain fall and faces on the wall
the mind is full of upside down things

fourty-nine days and you disappear
fifty and you were never there
six coins and ash
six coins and ash

i am waiting for the world to come crashing down
in the side streets and in the back alleys
i am waiting for the world to come crashing down

a fistful of forgetmenots
a fistful of forgetyounots

you are on the edge now
in a black and white reel
in a dream in black and white
in the papers and in the books
in the look of a passerby

heaven is a perfect monarchy
one to the head, two if you love me
i kiss you on the temple

you are forgotten now

when i could think of anything i thought of you

December 17th, 2008 by

when i could think of anything
i thought of you

when the night was long
and the sky revealed itself to me like never before
i thought of you

when each ship passed quietly in the dark
three lights on a satin canvass
i thought of you

when the midnight breeze
carressed my face and stired the weary tendrils of my soul
i thought of you

when in the final moments of each day
the gentle undulation of the sea
carried me off to sleep and i could think of anything:
i thought of you

for k